I never took pictures when I was pregnant with Claire. It was still too hard to enjoy anything. But I wish I had more now...
I realize that I don't take pics now either! So a few weeks ago before bed I had Blue snap this - just in case we don't take others! It's Trey at 25 weeks. I hope to do another one today - but it will be my kids taking it since my husband won't be home at all. :) We're real pros around here.
So I was able to address my concerns at my last doc visit, but they were all overshadowed by them telling us that our baby is anemic now. It was a huge blow - within seconds all our other thoughts/worries disappeared. It's one thing to get pregnant with the possibility that you might have to bury this next baby, but an entire other intensity to be suddenly in the "sick baby" place again.
Long story short, the NP told us there was nothing they could do at this point, just keep monitoring him and if he gets really bad to an in-uturo blood transfusion. So many questions.....
I called the doc and he said--- the NP interpreted the results of our MCA a little wrong and misinformed us! I would be so mad if I was not so relieved! Our son's readings went from the low end of the normal zone to the high end of the normal zone (in two weeks). But he was still in the normal zone. No anemia.
That was exactly 2 weeks ago. 26 weeks. He was just shy of 2lbs. Not ready to be born.
Today I go for another MCA reading. I am hopeful that he will be ok, as he moves like MAD. But even if he's getting anemic, at least he's older than my daughter was when she got it. He's got more of a chance.
Anyone with high-risk pregs ever wish they could go back to being ignorantly happy, never monitoring their baby but happily painting nursery's with a confidence that all would be well? I am grateful I had that once. It will never be experienced again in my life. I can't wait for all this to be over. My husband and kids feel the same way.
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I think that happy ignorance only happens with a first baby. I'm so relieved to hear that Trey's levels are not at the low end. I too would be upset at the NP. I hope we'll be reading about the high readings you get at your appt today.
Hang in there!
P.S.~You look fantastic, by the way! :o)
I agree with Jenn--- I think that ignorant bliss only happens with your first. My first pregnancy was an absolute breeze, and now I find myself in a completely different place. I am constantly worrying because I feel like I was too lucky with my first and something bad is bound to happen this time. While I can't imagine what you're feeling, I can SORTA relate... You look gorgeous, as always. You may not feel like it but I feel that your pregnancy is flying by and it's not too much longer til you can hold your baby boy in your arms! Hang in there :)
What the Crap as if you need any more worry, I would seriously be so TICKED at that Nurse Practitioner! If they can't have some one in there who knows how to read the results than she shouldn't be doing it! Because people who go to high risk Dr.'s are not patients who need false alarms! I'm glad to hear however that it was a false alarm, and that Trey is healthy and growing well! Your looking so cute with your little baby bump ") Its good your taking pictures of yourself preg. I wish I had taken more of my self preg. It's really just the last thing you want to do while your pregnant though :) Any way I'm glad you all made it back safe from your trip! Can't wait to hear more about it!
Happy to hear the results were misread! Continuing to hope and pray for your healthy baby Trey, and for any and all future babies you have!
No kidding about wanting the pregnancy to go to full term and have a happy ending...we are on pins and needles at my house. The other day, we were leaving Mass and Donnie suddenly said, "When are Kelly and Blue due? Because I really, really want that baby to be OK." I think we know who's on his mind.
Such a cute photo! (You know how I feel about photos!!!)
You know, I wonder why pregnancy still has to be such a guessing game...and a 9 month guessing game at that. I was probably niave when I was pregnant with Si, but I didn't realize how much could go wrong and how quickly. Even today, 17 months after his birth, I am somewhat surprised that after everything I ended up with such a happy, healthy child. I have so much fear around having another baby now - one of the main reasons it's still on the back burner. Well, that...and I like sleep way to much to start over again right now!!!
Anyway, I love seeing the belly...It's perfect!
Your looking great Kelly! But what a very scarey time for you being told he was sick. So glad to hear it was a mistake and his blood levels are in the normal range.
I totally understand where you are coming from with the ignorance is bliss comment. My life has forever changed. What I wouldnt give to have that ignorance back.....it truly was bliss.
Wishing you all the best x
I hope that your doctor will give you all results himself instead of allowing some poorly paid technician to do it! Awful.
Hugs to you my friend. It was so good to see you! You're doing so awesome.
Hi. I read your blog. I have decided to comment if I am going to read. I am Kaylani's sister and we met years ago before you met tragedy. I am so sorry for you and your family. You have been in my prayers many times. Your honesty and advocacy are a great lesson to so many of us. Be brave with your Docs. Take a friend or family member if you need to and never second guess your feelings while you are relying on HF. You have a beautiful family and they are blessed to have you for their mom.
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